I'm tired and I'm lost

I'm really tired now

mayb is the time to let me calm down and really think about it
time passed quickly
is already 13 of august
the only thing i still hoping is still about you
the time since you have gone
i thought i can hold on
because i know i need some time
like you all said about it
but
seriously i really cant
and i just hope that we can be like the past
mayb i already used to have your day
i like the way u chatting wif me
the way u talk on phone wif me
the way u be in my life
is u
the special one
whom i love
the only person i will miss when i free
the only person who send msg to me i will smile and i dunno why
and the person who i worry the most
now
i dunno what to do
i think i'm lost
just go school study study and study
i'm trying my hard way to do so
tryin to be the best
but sometimes is really not in the mood to study
pls leave me alone there
i just want to take a rest and restart my mind
u are not me
of course u dunno what the feeling
the feeling when u suddenly miss someone
i know form 6 is not an easy way to be success
but seriously i tryin now
when not in the mood
dota will be my tool to vent out my suck feeling
but dota still is a nightmare for me
because of dota
i lost her
mayb u can said not bcoz of this
but seriously this is the main cause and the 1st step i GG
i know that regret is useless
so now i'm trying to make myself more better
i wish i could have an undo key
to change what i did on 18.5.2010
a promise is still a promise
although i still haven't achieve that what i had promised
but i still remember it
and tryin to achieve it
because i hope u can see it
when i promise u
i really serious about it